A dream like death...
April 7th 2008 23:14
I was wandering around my old town with my best mate. She was talking about her sister who recently had a baby. I found an injured crow and took it home and it was cuddling me like it had been my pet for years. When we arrived 'home' which looked like her house but now it was dark, decrepit and falling apart, and Tara from Buffy was there. It was as if she lived there and we were buddies.....Or Girlfriends. She told me she'd been to antartica, which was just up the road, a few hours, and she'd met two boys I used to know. Somehow it worked out that they had a place to rent up there with room for horses, and since I had no room, I decided to take the place.
I remember climbing into a bed with Tara, cuddling up to my crow and talking with her. She was saying yes, how both the boys were there and they talked about me and seemed keen to see me. She professed caution. I started to feel nervous.
Throughout the dream I talked to everyone and they all agreed, even though I needed to go there, I probably shouldnt, and Tara looking at me with her sad eyes. My best mate got all excited, her sister was coming back to stay, from living somewhere far away. Tara was looking at my Ipod - I was packing my things, ready to leave everyone and everything. She said, "How many songs does it hold" And I couldnt remember and said, it has I gig.
I crawl into bed with Tara again. This room seems clean and glowing by a shaded blue. I cuddle up to the crow and Tara. Within the dream I dream...
That Im on a plane going there. Its not all ice although it is snowing. I meet the boys and check the place out but its not long before my blood is staining the snow. When I awake screaming and sweating in Tara's arms, she says in that melodious voice, "i dont think you should go. I know you need to, but you shouldnt go"
I get out of bed and start talking to everyone about how Im not going. Its like a huge weight has been lifted and I join in the celebrations as my best mates sister has come, along with best mates boyfriend, sisters boyfriend and a bunch of other people. Ive never felt so happy, so free, like just saying "Im not going" has given me so much power. As the party rocks on I see Tara with the crow and both look at me deeply, Tara saying sadly, shaking her head "Its just not enough for you is it"
And I awake hollow and empty and that feeling of power, the carefree freedom, is gone like it never was.
And outside my window, crows are cawing....
I remember climbing into a bed with Tara, cuddling up to my crow and talking with her. She was saying yes, how both the boys were there and they talked about me and seemed keen to see me. She professed caution. I started to feel nervous.
Throughout the dream I talked to everyone and they all agreed, even though I needed to go there, I probably shouldnt, and Tara looking at me with her sad eyes. My best mate got all excited, her sister was coming back to stay, from living somewhere far away. Tara was looking at my Ipod - I was packing my things, ready to leave everyone and everything. She said, "How many songs does it hold" And I couldnt remember and said, it has I gig.
I crawl into bed with Tara again. This room seems clean and glowing by a shaded blue. I cuddle up to the crow and Tara. Within the dream I dream...
That Im on a plane going there. Its not all ice although it is snowing. I meet the boys and check the place out but its not long before my blood is staining the snow. When I awake screaming and sweating in Tara's arms, she says in that melodious voice, "i dont think you should go. I know you need to, but you shouldnt go"
I get out of bed and start talking to everyone about how Im not going. Its like a huge weight has been lifted and I join in the celebrations as my best mates sister has come, along with best mates boyfriend, sisters boyfriend and a bunch of other people. Ive never felt so happy, so free, like just saying "Im not going" has given me so much power. As the party rocks on I see Tara with the crow and both look at me deeply, Tara saying sadly, shaking her head "Its just not enough for you is it"
And I awake hollow and empty and that feeling of power, the carefree freedom, is gone like it never was.
And outside my window, crows are cawing....
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Im not sure I like what I see any more.....Or even if I do like it, Im not ready to change yet dear one. Taurus doesnt like moving paddocks.
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