Dont you ever.....
August 22nd 2007 04:50
Want to hunt? Dont you ever feel a pressing need like fire in your blood to stalk through the underbrush, eyes trained on your prey, carefully positioned downwind? Dont you ever feel the need to bash two rocks together to make a fire, weave threads together to make a curtain for your cave?
Dont you ever feel the need to journey - to collect everything you need and walk, walk, walk to the far off horizon, just to see whats there? Dont you ever feel a pressing need to have mud between your toes as you bolt through the forest away from an enemy, heart pounding as your fingers grasp the flint knife, to turn in sweat and pain and courage, and PROVE your dominance as the greatest species on earth?
Dont you ever feel the need to discover? So much talk about 'cavemen' type humans when all thats required to know the truth is to disappear into the bush. Dont you ever feel a desperate need to be in a place where there is no concrete, no ashphault, no tarmac? Dont you ever feel frightened by the massive buildings in the city? Utterly confounded by mobile phones?
Dont you ever feel a sense of absolute wonder while in line at a supermarket? Doesnt some code on your genes activate and inform you "this is amazing - this sort of conveniance has been dreamed about by SO MANY generations of your ancestors"?
Dont you ever feel opressed by fluroescent lights? Air conditioning? Havnt you ever been scared out of your mind by the sudden start of an engine?
Do you really, actually believe that you are talking to REAL people through your computer? Or is it like believing the Earth is spinning in orbit - sure, you understand intellectually that you are communicating to people all over the world, but it just doesnt connect in your brain. Instead your mind plays a good trick on you - One level of your brain affirms the facts of communicating globally while sitting on your arse, the other 'user friendly' level just creates little video game charaters to talk to, algorythyms, suggestions. Not real enough to be people, not pretend enough to be fiction.
Im sure, if you've ever had any of the above feelings, youve swallowed them quickly. Suppressed them as all us 20th century humans are so good at doing. If they've persisted Im sure you've gone to a therapist. Oh, but why do I feel a desperate need to go out and stab something with a stick? There must be something desperately wrong with me.
And, Im sure, said therapist has agreed whole heartedly with you. You're a goddman mess! They write on their secret notes - a complete nutcase. To you therapist will say - "You're feeling frustrated and confined in your career and goals, we'll help you work on these issues so you can become another GODDAMN FUCKING CLOCKWORK ORANGE!!!!"
When, Im sorry, its just human to feel that way. We bitch, we whinge on and on and ON about violence, violence in the media, violence on our streets, and then all the champions of the 'non violent' causes will sit down and watch 'Law and order SVU' thinking (very quietly in case we psychics hear them) "God, I hope that guy gets shot"
Excuse me......How do you think we became the most powerful and evolved species? We didnt sit down with the saber tooth tiger and helpfully negotiate terms. We keep going on and on about how fucking clever we are, and, oh, how will we move on into the next age? We are such graceful and intelligent beings, surely a Brave New World is on the horizon?
No matter how far we come, how goddamn intelligent we THINK we are, each and every one of us is still a neanderthal hunter. Every single one of us has that in us. When a group of young boys get into a bloody brawl with another group of young bucks on a friday night, I'll bet you all my toes its over one of two things - preference of a female, or territory. And I'll bet you not one of them worried for a moment if this was 'the Right thing to Do' or if they were 'Acting like animals' because they didnt care. They didnt give a good goddamn. All they knew and felt was that as a group, for this cause, a great and deep feeling welled up inside them. Something that was red as fury and black as the midnight sky. Something that was more real than school lessons, mums and dads rules and the goddamn product placement on TV and the consumerisim race. They GRABBED this feeling, held onto it, didnt want to let it go. Suddenly they felt -
ALIVE
For the first time in their lives. Every genetic code in their body said - THIS is right, THIS is your programmed behaviour. Not buying game stations, not sitting at a school desk or trying to fit in with 'intelligent society' THIS. Fight for the favour of females. Protect your territory!
To move on and evolve humans need to recognise this. I sometimes believe the ancient races had it completely worked out - if you watch 'Alexander' (yes, the gay version) you see how they interact with each other, the intelligent conversation and being so very polite..... And then they go to war and come out of it screaming and covered with blood. Recognise human nature, accept.....
And those of you who have said, "no no no" I never feel that way you're wrong? Im human, not animal, by order of Almighty God?
Good luck to you. It'll claw its way out of your skin sooner or later. I applaud your great skills of repression.
The rest of you? If you know what its like to wake up clawing the air desperately after dreaming of running through a forest with breath burning your chest and throat and the muscles in your thighs turning to steel as you pump through the mud because your LIFE depends on it........Dont conform. Not ever.
They wonder why obesity is an epidemic. Its so sad when animals arent kept in their natural habitats, dont you think?
Dont you ever feel the need to journey - to collect everything you need and walk, walk, walk to the far off horizon, just to see whats there? Dont you ever feel a pressing need to have mud between your toes as you bolt through the forest away from an enemy, heart pounding as your fingers grasp the flint knife, to turn in sweat and pain and courage, and PROVE your dominance as the greatest species on earth?
Dont you ever feel the need to discover? So much talk about 'cavemen' type humans when all thats required to know the truth is to disappear into the bush. Dont you ever feel a desperate need to be in a place where there is no concrete, no ashphault, no tarmac? Dont you ever feel frightened by the massive buildings in the city? Utterly confounded by mobile phones?
Dont you ever feel a sense of absolute wonder while in line at a supermarket? Doesnt some code on your genes activate and inform you "this is amazing - this sort of conveniance has been dreamed about by SO MANY generations of your ancestors"?
Dont you ever feel opressed by fluroescent lights? Air conditioning? Havnt you ever been scared out of your mind by the sudden start of an engine?
Do you really, actually believe that you are talking to REAL people through your computer? Or is it like believing the Earth is spinning in orbit - sure, you understand intellectually that you are communicating to people all over the world, but it just doesnt connect in your brain. Instead your mind plays a good trick on you - One level of your brain affirms the facts of communicating globally while sitting on your arse, the other 'user friendly' level just creates little video game charaters to talk to, algorythyms, suggestions. Not real enough to be people, not pretend enough to be fiction.
Im sure, if you've ever had any of the above feelings, youve swallowed them quickly. Suppressed them as all us 20th century humans are so good at doing. If they've persisted Im sure you've gone to a therapist. Oh, but why do I feel a desperate need to go out and stab something with a stick? There must be something desperately wrong with me.
And, Im sure, said therapist has agreed whole heartedly with you. You're a goddman mess! They write on their secret notes - a complete nutcase. To you therapist will say - "You're feeling frustrated and confined in your career and goals, we'll help you work on these issues so you can become another GODDAMN FUCKING CLOCKWORK ORANGE!!!!"
When, Im sorry, its just human to feel that way. We bitch, we whinge on and on and ON about violence, violence in the media, violence on our streets, and then all the champions of the 'non violent' causes will sit down and watch 'Law and order SVU' thinking (very quietly in case we psychics hear them) "God, I hope that guy gets shot"
Excuse me......How do you think we became the most powerful and evolved species? We didnt sit down with the saber tooth tiger and helpfully negotiate terms. We keep going on and on about how fucking clever we are, and, oh, how will we move on into the next age? We are such graceful and intelligent beings, surely a Brave New World is on the horizon?
No matter how far we come, how goddamn intelligent we THINK we are, each and every one of us is still a neanderthal hunter. Every single one of us has that in us. When a group of young boys get into a bloody brawl with another group of young bucks on a friday night, I'll bet you all my toes its over one of two things - preference of a female, or territory. And I'll bet you not one of them worried for a moment if this was 'the Right thing to Do' or if they were 'Acting like animals' because they didnt care. They didnt give a good goddamn. All they knew and felt was that as a group, for this cause, a great and deep feeling welled up inside them. Something that was red as fury and black as the midnight sky. Something that was more real than school lessons, mums and dads rules and the goddamn product placement on TV and the consumerisim race. They GRABBED this feeling, held onto it, didnt want to let it go. Suddenly they felt -
ALIVE
For the first time in their lives. Every genetic code in their body said - THIS is right, THIS is your programmed behaviour. Not buying game stations, not sitting at a school desk or trying to fit in with 'intelligent society' THIS. Fight for the favour of females. Protect your territory!
To move on and evolve humans need to recognise this. I sometimes believe the ancient races had it completely worked out - if you watch 'Alexander' (yes, the gay version) you see how they interact with each other, the intelligent conversation and being so very polite..... And then they go to war and come out of it screaming and covered with blood. Recognise human nature, accept.....
And those of you who have said, "no no no" I never feel that way you're wrong? Im human, not animal, by order of Almighty God?
Good luck to you. It'll claw its way out of your skin sooner or later. I applaud your great skills of repression.
The rest of you? If you know what its like to wake up clawing the air desperately after dreaming of running through a forest with breath burning your chest and throat and the muscles in your thighs turning to steel as you pump through the mud because your LIFE depends on it........Dont conform. Not ever.
They wonder why obesity is an epidemic. Its so sad when animals arent kept in their natural habitats, dont you think?
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Comment by David
I've only got this far yet:
This is what is called discovering your 'voice' as a writer.
Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
Comment by David
Now, for your homework? For the next year? Give this voice to the main character in your futuristic novel. (I'm joking, but inject a bit of this into it).
Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
This has begun in the second installment. The new character 'Markus' has got this going on. I got bored in Sidnee so now Im taking you out from under the RRF....
I adore homework. I'll never say no.....
Comment by katyzzz
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But back to your original post, No and yes and yes and no and nononononono and occasionally yes, but no f'in please so you've just lost me.
The sabre tooth tiger has spoken...next he bites.
k to K ssshhhhsshhshshhshsshhhs
Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
Great to see you! *hug*
Whatever you are taking, I want some.
Comment by katyzzz
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katyzzz....no pills, just food, full of nutrients.
Comment by Julie Vaux
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Strange Situations
The Purple Challenge
As for sitting down with the sabre tooth
hey we seduced their relatives the CAT!
As for all that blood and gore and mud ... who does the washing in your household???
Who cleans the mess?
There are reasons some of us avoid those things!
Humans did not evolve directly from neandethals.
We both came from earlier homo erectus.
I'd rather hunt for an interesting idea or book or poem.
Or Chocolate.
Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
I dont believe you
Julie
Nice to see you! My shopping trips are always short, because Im short of cash! I usually find what I need....
Five cats live in this house. They have me extremely well trained. You wouldnt believe the tricks I can do.
Who cleans the house and does the washing? I DO!! I am responsable for all our cleaning, every last thing!
Theres a part of me that avoids it all....My savage side always wins though. Ive tried so hard to be a 'do your nails keep clean' kinda girl. Doesnt work. I'd just rather be out in the mud....
At least you acknowledge our hunting skills are alive and well....I think we're all searching for more poetry....And chocolate.
Thanks for the comment!
Comment by Chic Critique
We all still have the same genetic coding as we had 10,000 years ago.
They wonder why obesity is an epidemic.
Exactly. We're not using our adrenaline when it hits for running away from the tigers, but instead maintaining our seated position in front of the screen and discussing the issues at hand as seen on TV, movies, etc. like you say.
Cheers
CC
Comment by DuskDevi
Rugby World Cup 2007
And...YES.
This is...naked, Kleo.
Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
Hello! Oh YES thats what Im TALKIN bout! We wonder why anxiety has become such an issue when we force our adrenaline back down into our stomachs and any fight/flight reaction is now called a mental illness.....
Im really into genetics - Im so stoked by this....
Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
My sweet darling! I didnt think you'd have a problem with naked!
Funny thing about this post? I dont know where it came from. I didnt intend to write it. It was a WHAM idea.
I mentioned you in 'mx factor' do you know about the Wallaby's mosaic thing thats happening? You get your photo taken by a billboard and theyre all going to end up in one of those mosaic thingies.
Thanks for lovin it.
Comment by DuskDevi
Rugby World Cup 2007
...I meant...it's so stripped bare TRUTHFUL...I truly love your voice here...I remember you saying once that you do have a powerful voice...and with this post...I can hear you.
Will check your other posts out...hugs Kleo...
Comment by JoshZ
This is beautiful. Life is never lived vicariously. Existence can only be experienced, never enjoyed.
JZ
Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
I might have a go at recording my voice like Lily did. Shes inspiring me! *hugs* back always....
Josh,
I believe existance can be enjoyed....It aint easy though! Thanks so much for the visit, Im glad you liked it.
Comment by Mrs M
Mum's Word
Very confronting post Kleo. That's what I like about you...you just put it out there.
Love & stuff
Mrs M
Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
THANKYOU!!!!
I considered that to be SO clever! No one got it or cared except you!
Heres to putting it out there!