In Sickness......
May 10th 2007 04:58
So much has happened in such a short time. Quite often Ive had it said my life is like a soap opera, well, I guess its true. Wheres the camera?
Its a funny clause that "In Sickness". In theory it means when your less than well the people who love you all bind together and care for you and make sure you dont exert yourself. Theres nothing I can do but tell you how it went down.
Wed night was my birthday, 2nd of may. We had pizza, we had cake. My boyfriend and I watched the new 'Harvey Birdman' dvds I got for my birthday. I hadnt been feeling what you call 100% for awhile but I wasnt too concerned. Suddenly, I couldnt get warm. With a terrible insistance, I lit the fire and sat on top of it. Icy blades were driving into my lower back and piercing my stomach from behind, wracking me with pain and chills. I shivered and shook and almost blacked out. We were moving in two days - I didnt have time to be sick. I went to bed.
Enter the worst night of my life. Im well acquinted with fever and chills and infections, we're old buddies. But the second I curled up in bed there was no relief. The fever got worse. I couldnt sleep - I was shaking and sweating too much. When I did sleep I had horrid nightmares of blackened little pygmies running over corpses of their fellows. Early that morning I was sure I was dying.
Thursday morning. My first day of my new job. Id let them down. They would never get someone to cover it now. I went to the doctor - they advised hospital and I refused, I went home, slept for 12 hours until my fever broke. I expected to get better but did not and after another trip to the doctor on friday I found myself in hospital. They too sent me home, and no less than 5 mins after we got home my family was expecting me to be well again.
Oh, on the way to hospital wasnt it all utmost concern and caring and love. Five mins out the door 7 hours later they were acting as if nothing happened, and when I was a little slow, a little tired, a little reluctant, Id get these 'looks'. Accusing looks. Like they were both thinking "Well, WHY does she have to be sick? Doesnt she know we need her? That we cant do it without her?" Thats all well and good fellas, but I didnt ask to be sick!
I worked all weekend. Occassionally one of them would glance over and say "You ok?" but really I know neither of them cared. They only cared about the work that needed to be done. Kman looked like he was going to have a heart attack when I asked him to help me get the horses on the truck "But I dont know what to do" he protested, to which I looked up at him with black rimmed and hollow eyes to answer shakily "Well I cant do it on my own".
We worked approxamitely 12 hours each day. Probably longer. Finally all was moved (haphazardly) to the new house and Tuesday I had the tests the doctor requested.
Today I got the results, exactly a week since I fell really ill. They found a bacterial bowel infection. Painful, draining, but treatable. But thats not all. Ive had further tests done and have to go back for more because....
They found something in my left kidney. I find that interesting because thats where my back pain always starts. Its funny how the doctor explained it. "Its an 8mm mass in your left kidney....Probably a benign...Uh...Um....mass of fat or muscle tissue." I just love how she danced around the word 'tumour' brilliant work love, if I wasnt psychic and perceptive I may well have missed that!
So thats whats up and down. I'll get back to you all when I can. Ive still got my job, but I cant take any work yet, so thats a small bonus.
Ive missed all the orblers, and thought of you often.....
Its a funny clause that "In Sickness". In theory it means when your less than well the people who love you all bind together and care for you and make sure you dont exert yourself. Theres nothing I can do but tell you how it went down.
Wed night was my birthday, 2nd of may. We had pizza, we had cake. My boyfriend and I watched the new 'Harvey Birdman' dvds I got for my birthday. I hadnt been feeling what you call 100% for awhile but I wasnt too concerned. Suddenly, I couldnt get warm. With a terrible insistance, I lit the fire and sat on top of it. Icy blades were driving into my lower back and piercing my stomach from behind, wracking me with pain and chills. I shivered and shook and almost blacked out. We were moving in two days - I didnt have time to be sick. I went to bed.
Enter the worst night of my life. Im well acquinted with fever and chills and infections, we're old buddies. But the second I curled up in bed there was no relief. The fever got worse. I couldnt sleep - I was shaking and sweating too much. When I did sleep I had horrid nightmares of blackened little pygmies running over corpses of their fellows. Early that morning I was sure I was dying.
Thursday morning. My first day of my new job. Id let them down. They would never get someone to cover it now. I went to the doctor - they advised hospital and I refused, I went home, slept for 12 hours until my fever broke. I expected to get better but did not and after another trip to the doctor on friday I found myself in hospital. They too sent me home, and no less than 5 mins after we got home my family was expecting me to be well again.
Oh, on the way to hospital wasnt it all utmost concern and caring and love. Five mins out the door 7 hours later they were acting as if nothing happened, and when I was a little slow, a little tired, a little reluctant, Id get these 'looks'. Accusing looks. Like they were both thinking "Well, WHY does she have to be sick? Doesnt she know we need her? That we cant do it without her?" Thats all well and good fellas, but I didnt ask to be sick!
I worked all weekend. Occassionally one of them would glance over and say "You ok?" but really I know neither of them cared. They only cared about the work that needed to be done. Kman looked like he was going to have a heart attack when I asked him to help me get the horses on the truck "But I dont know what to do" he protested, to which I looked up at him with black rimmed and hollow eyes to answer shakily "Well I cant do it on my own".
We worked approxamitely 12 hours each day. Probably longer. Finally all was moved (haphazardly) to the new house and Tuesday I had the tests the doctor requested.
Today I got the results, exactly a week since I fell really ill. They found a bacterial bowel infection. Painful, draining, but treatable. But thats not all. Ive had further tests done and have to go back for more because....
They found something in my left kidney. I find that interesting because thats where my back pain always starts. Its funny how the doctor explained it. "Its an 8mm mass in your left kidney....Probably a benign...Uh...Um....mass of fat or muscle tissue." I just love how she danced around the word 'tumour' brilliant work love, if I wasnt psychic and perceptive I may well have missed that!
So thats whats up and down. I'll get back to you all when I can. Ive still got my job, but I cant take any work yet, so thats a small bonus.
Ive missed all the orblers, and thought of you often.....
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Comment by katyzzz
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I really feel for you, so untimely, and people just do not understand unless they've been through something similar themselves.
We look forward to hearing all about everything when you feel up to it.
Let's hope work is understanding, if not, just move on, even if that is just into bed.
katyzzz
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Comment by Tracy
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I hope you feel better soon, sounds like it's one of those times where everything happens all at the same time. Sounds like you need a good rest, I hope you can get some.
I was thinking about you earlier when I was watching BB and was wondering what you were thinking about all their antics..!
Thinking of you,
Tracy
Comment by Wendi
Sharing healing energies and good vibes your way.
::hugs::
W