No more little red pill
June 11th 2009 00:27
I have decided to stop taking the deralin.
Why? Because I just cant take the cold any more.
My whole life, I have never really felt the cold. After I went on the Deralin - and Ive been on it now for over a year - I really, really felt it. It concerns me because Ive always had poor circulation, so even less feeling in my fingers and toes is not something I need. I have been afraid to go off it, because when I first started to take it, it did the trick and stopped the pain. However, since being on it, the pain crept back, even cumulating in an attack in May last year, and another a few months later. A full on attack that robs me of motor skills and makes me vomit, akin to being hit with a sledge hammer in the left side of the face.
And the pain came back and it was WORSE. Thats what led to dentists, ear nose throat dudes, CTS, x rays, and finally the big two hundred and fifty nuero. Now, this nuero, he was sure it wasnt a nerve problem. He said it was a chronic, daily migraine, basically where the migraine cycle gets so tight that it never ends. He said, he wasnt sure if the deralin was even doing anything. I was even on a lower than recommended dose.
But the endep works. Its not exactly an easy ride - no medication ever seems to be, for me - Sometimes, its like Im on a raging high, an ecstasy I havnt felt since....Well, ecstasy. Like I love everything and everything loves me. And then theres the low, that crashes, but doesnt actually last too long, even if it is sharp. But Ive been carefully monitoring my face and pain, and theres nothing, nothing there.
Also, Im now back on the pill, and that seems to have done wonders. Not for the face, but for the rest of me. It sort of evens me out, I guess.
So, last night, when I collected my nightly handful - 1 little blue pill, one yellow capsule, one brown pill, and one tiny whatever colour it is today pill, I left out the little bloodred pill.
This morning I checked up on Deralin through google, to see if anything should be looked out for when going off it. It seems the biggest issues is if its treating a heart problem. Then a sudden stp could trigger a heart attack, but I was concerned to see this list of UNCOMMON side effects -
- cold fingers and toes
- ear pressure/pain, difficulty hearing
- blurred vision, other visual difficulties
Now, these are UNcommon side effects. However, Ive had them. And when I started to complan of ear pain last year, no one even mentioned the Deralin might be the cause. I remember one doctor who told me to go off it and I said I couldnt, I was too afraid of the pain. But I didnt have Endep then. And if the pain has returned while I was on the Deralin, then I can be pretty sure its not doing all its suposed to. Especially when I want rid of the side effects.
My ears dont hurt. My vision seems way to bright, but its a replacing blood flow, so I have to let it even out. I wonder if I'll still need glasses now, or if my poor eyes just werent getting enough blood? I have had some pretty bad shortness of breath too, and Ive been puffing ventolin, something I havnt done in years. My fingers and toes are still cold....But my breaths clouding up in here, so maybe thats not so weird.
There is a suggestion of pain. From above and behind the left temple, coming down, bleeding into the left eye and going down the cheek. Its not exactly pain, just a dullness that occasionaly streaks like electricity.
I'll give it a few days.
Why? Because I just cant take the cold any more.
My whole life, I have never really felt the cold. After I went on the Deralin - and Ive been on it now for over a year - I really, really felt it. It concerns me because Ive always had poor circulation, so even less feeling in my fingers and toes is not something I need. I have been afraid to go off it, because when I first started to take it, it did the trick and stopped the pain. However, since being on it, the pain crept back, even cumulating in an attack in May last year, and another a few months later. A full on attack that robs me of motor skills and makes me vomit, akin to being hit with a sledge hammer in the left side of the face.
And the pain came back and it was WORSE. Thats what led to dentists, ear nose throat dudes, CTS, x rays, and finally the big two hundred and fifty nuero. Now, this nuero, he was sure it wasnt a nerve problem. He said it was a chronic, daily migraine, basically where the migraine cycle gets so tight that it never ends. He said, he wasnt sure if the deralin was even doing anything. I was even on a lower than recommended dose.
But the endep works. Its not exactly an easy ride - no medication ever seems to be, for me - Sometimes, its like Im on a raging high, an ecstasy I havnt felt since....Well, ecstasy. Like I love everything and everything loves me. And then theres the low, that crashes, but doesnt actually last too long, even if it is sharp. But Ive been carefully monitoring my face and pain, and theres nothing, nothing there.
Also, Im now back on the pill, and that seems to have done wonders. Not for the face, but for the rest of me. It sort of evens me out, I guess.
So, last night, when I collected my nightly handful - 1 little blue pill, one yellow capsule, one brown pill, and one tiny whatever colour it is today pill, I left out the little bloodred pill.
This morning I checked up on Deralin through google, to see if anything should be looked out for when going off it. It seems the biggest issues is if its treating a heart problem. Then a sudden stp could trigger a heart attack, but I was concerned to see this list of UNCOMMON side effects -
- cold fingers and toes
- ear pressure/pain, difficulty hearing
- blurred vision, other visual difficulties
Now, these are UNcommon side effects. However, Ive had them. And when I started to complan of ear pain last year, no one even mentioned the Deralin might be the cause. I remember one doctor who told me to go off it and I said I couldnt, I was too afraid of the pain. But I didnt have Endep then. And if the pain has returned while I was on the Deralin, then I can be pretty sure its not doing all its suposed to. Especially when I want rid of the side effects.
My ears dont hurt. My vision seems way to bright, but its a replacing blood flow, so I have to let it even out. I wonder if I'll still need glasses now, or if my poor eyes just werent getting enough blood? I have had some pretty bad shortness of breath too, and Ive been puffing ventolin, something I havnt done in years. My fingers and toes are still cold....But my breaths clouding up in here, so maybe thats not so weird.
There is a suggestion of pain. From above and behind the left temple, coming down, bleeding into the left eye and going down the cheek. Its not exactly pain, just a dullness that occasionaly streaks like electricity.
I'll give it a few days.
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