The Job - Take 2 (I need a rakka sitter)
August 30th 2007 04:40
When I went for my first day with Lynn on may 31st, I was an agoraphobic wreck. Id been home too long. The sky was too wide, the world too large, the people too strange......
Then I settled into the routine. I got GOOD at what I was doing there, I got to know her business. It gave me the boost I needed to put my hand up for sexpo, and working at sexpo put my confidence into hyperdrive - how could it do anything else? For those 4 days I went here there and everywhere, completely mastering sydney buses and rail, and the sales technique.....Full story
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So after this I was the all singing all dancing champion of the world! I was beginning to excel at gaining bookings and comp entries at the promos. I was beginning to put away money and thinking how very perfect this was. Part time, flexible, well paid work, with a boss who's more a friend than a boss. What more could I want?
One day when Im trying to blog my brother rings me, all a-twitter because he wants me to apply at the police force like him.....There offering grooms jobs bub! (I hate being called bub but its not as offensive as my brothers other nickname for me.....'Dimly Lit' its a word play if you know my actual name) I sigh - Yeah, so? He goes its FULL TIME!! I cringe, full time?
I dont want full time.....Im good the way I am.
Enter stern older brother voice. "I thought you'd be more excited" And so, to shut him up, I go for it. I dont imagine anything will come of it, after all, Im HAPPY the way I am, and Ive been saying firmly for the last oh, 8 years or so - I DO NOT WANT A HORSE JOB!! I dont want to look after someone else's horses, Ive been there, done that to work off my Stud fees and it kills your freshness for your own horses. I know myself, I know how lazy I am, I dont want to have a horsey burn out. It happens to a lot of people - lets face it, horses are bloody hard work!
All this is made worse by Lynne talking about how she wants to expand, make me admin manager, the face of her shop. Groan.
But one little niggling voice.....Who gets very loud when I hit on a rude customer who snaps "How did you get this number!" (sigh. You gave it to us!) starts telling me.......Imagine never speaking to a customer again. Ever. Imagine never feeling awkward in your workplace because you know the job like you know how to breathe?
Conflicting feelings go back and forth.....I dont know what I want. It really helps that Lynne tells me to do it, go for it, try it, and if it doesnt work, at least I'll KNOW that, and I can come back to her, anytime. What an angel huh?
Turns out they screw up my info and the final checks take longer than they should. Today, they ring me....
"YOU ARE SUCCESSFUL"
Hehehe.....This is the funny part. "Do you have a horse?" "Ah, I have 5 horses" "and you are in close proximity to them?" I look out the window at my herd..."Ah, yeah"
Due to quarantine, I wont be allowed into the horse unit until the end of october(jeez thats a long time!) so on Monday I start at another centre.....Just what will I be doing I wonder, if Im not doing horses? He goes - "you dont have to start early or anything. Just get here when you can" *snort* "give me a time please?" "oh.....Lets say....9am?" I'll have to open a bank account too....Been awhile since I needed one of those!
The song "my my my" comes on just after the call, so I turn it up and do a little victory dance. (and I didnt need pants) But then, with excitement and triumph flooding through me.....I notice my Raka on my shoulder.....I adore her. I spend every minute with her.
What will she do without her mommy? She gets so traumatized if I have to leave her for even half a day. She's playing with me right now.....Jara Jara Binky just LOVES to play computer.....Jump on keyboard, click buttons, chase the mouse across the screen....
The ducks live in the laundry and go on the back deck for the day. They cant go out unsupervised.
Zayfir needs to be monitored in case the girl next door comes in season.
Whos going to do my job while Im away?
If you'd like to apply to be a raka/duck/cat/horse/dog sitter you will need the following qualifications....
You must know the exact temperature Najara likes her bath, and instinctively know just when she needs one. Also you must psychically determine when she's hungry, thirsty or wants to play.
You must be able to watch the ducks through their own eyes, be able to separate 'distress' calls from 'happy' calls.
You must be able to see every horse within a 20 minute window.
You must emulate my footstep and voice exactly - the animals only feel safe when Im about.
OH! The nervousness and fear are clawing through my throat - Im thinking and focusing on GETTING OUR OWN PLACE, I should only have to work for a year (or less if we're careful) to afford what we need to purchase our dream.....Its not forever, I know, and soon I'll be so tired and overworked I wont give a damn anyway.....
But none of these excuses disguise the fact that I'll have to leave them, ALONE, UNPROTECTED and on UNSAFE land.....Ouch. Um. Hooray?
Please see this poem -
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Then I settled into the routine. I got GOOD at what I was doing there, I got to know her business. It gave me the boost I needed to put my hand up for sexpo, and working at sexpo put my confidence into hyperdrive - how could it do anything else? For those 4 days I went here there and everywhere, completely mastering sydney buses and rail, and the sales technique.....Full story
Really Long Link
So after this I was the all singing all dancing champion of the world! I was beginning to excel at gaining bookings and comp entries at the promos. I was beginning to put away money and thinking how very perfect this was. Part time, flexible, well paid work, with a boss who's more a friend than a boss. What more could I want?
One day when Im trying to blog my brother rings me, all a-twitter because he wants me to apply at the police force like him.....There offering grooms jobs bub! (I hate being called bub but its not as offensive as my brothers other nickname for me.....'Dimly Lit' its a word play if you know my actual name) I sigh - Yeah, so? He goes its FULL TIME!! I cringe, full time?
I dont want full time.....Im good the way I am.
Enter stern older brother voice. "I thought you'd be more excited" And so, to shut him up, I go for it. I dont imagine anything will come of it, after all, Im HAPPY the way I am, and Ive been saying firmly for the last oh, 8 years or so - I DO NOT WANT A HORSE JOB!! I dont want to look after someone else's horses, Ive been there, done that to work off my Stud fees and it kills your freshness for your own horses. I know myself, I know how lazy I am, I dont want to have a horsey burn out. It happens to a lot of people - lets face it, horses are bloody hard work!
All this is made worse by Lynne talking about how she wants to expand, make me admin manager, the face of her shop. Groan.
But one little niggling voice.....Who gets very loud when I hit on a rude customer who snaps "How did you get this number!" (sigh. You gave it to us!) starts telling me.......Imagine never speaking to a customer again. Ever. Imagine never feeling awkward in your workplace because you know the job like you know how to breathe?
Conflicting feelings go back and forth.....I dont know what I want. It really helps that Lynne tells me to do it, go for it, try it, and if it doesnt work, at least I'll KNOW that, and I can come back to her, anytime. What an angel huh?
Turns out they screw up my info and the final checks take longer than they should. Today, they ring me....
"YOU ARE SUCCESSFUL"
Hehehe.....This is the funny part. "Do you have a horse?" "Ah, I have 5 horses" "and you are in close proximity to them?" I look out the window at my herd..."Ah, yeah"
Due to quarantine, I wont be allowed into the horse unit until the end of october(jeez thats a long time!) so on Monday I start at another centre.....Just what will I be doing I wonder, if Im not doing horses? He goes - "you dont have to start early or anything. Just get here when you can" *snort* "give me a time please?" "oh.....Lets say....9am?" I'll have to open a bank account too....Been awhile since I needed one of those!
The song "my my my" comes on just after the call, so I turn it up and do a little victory dance. (and I didnt need pants) But then, with excitement and triumph flooding through me.....I notice my Raka on my shoulder.....I adore her. I spend every minute with her.
Make sure you get my good side mum!
What will she do without her mommy? She gets so traumatized if I have to leave her for even half a day. She's playing with me right now.....Jara Jara Binky just LOVES to play computer.....Jump on keyboard, click buttons, chase the mouse across the screen....
The ducks live in the laundry and go on the back deck for the day. They cant go out unsupervised.
Zayfir needs to be monitored in case the girl next door comes in season.
Whos going to do my job while Im away?
If you'd like to apply to be a raka/duck/cat/horse/dog sitter you will need the following qualifications....
You must know the exact temperature Najara likes her bath, and instinctively know just when she needs one. Also you must psychically determine when she's hungry, thirsty or wants to play.
You must be able to watch the ducks through their own eyes, be able to separate 'distress' calls from 'happy' calls.
You must be able to see every horse within a 20 minute window.
You must emulate my footstep and voice exactly - the animals only feel safe when Im about.
OH! The nervousness and fear are clawing through my throat - Im thinking and focusing on GETTING OUR OWN PLACE, I should only have to work for a year (or less if we're careful) to afford what we need to purchase our dream.....Its not forever, I know, and soon I'll be so tired and overworked I wont give a damn anyway.....
But none of these excuses disguise the fact that I'll have to leave them, ALONE, UNPROTECTED and on UNSAFE land.....Ouch. Um. Hooray?
Please see this poem -
Really Long Link
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Comment by Louie
randomthoughts
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Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
Comment by Nickoftime's Sanity Corner
good luck hon, all the best...
And things wil be fine, they'll look after each other just fine!
Peace and white light,
Nick
Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
I hope you're right darlin! Im not liking the look of things already.....
Comment by Mrs M
Mum's Word
You are suffering from classic mother guilt.
I hope it all works out.
Love & stuff
Mrs M
Comment by Lilla
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This really sounds to me like everything is working out exactly as it's meant too... I see a brighter future here and even something coming to enable you to spend time at home with the "family"...
Good luck with it all...
Lilla ...
Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
*hugs* I knew you'd understand. It hurts.
Lilla,
I hope you are right dear one. You've predicted very well for me so far. I have so much doubt and fear, so unlike me. Normally I tackle everything head on. I feel strange in this situation.
So, I pray hard you are right!