ramblings
May 7th 2008 02:48
Yesterday was such a perfect day. The sky didnt know what it was doing and so just slashed every colour and shape out there that it could think of. The clouds insulated us and made us warm and the pattering of rain came intermittantly.
Today its just too bright, too sunny. And I find it hilarious that the breeze coming through the window now would easily be considered 'cool' in summer but right now is feeling 'warm'.
Why does no one want me? Honestly, it used to be all I had to do was show I was available to the job world and prospective employment quite literally beat the door down. Now I keep getting "Sorry" "Unfortunately" and people refusing to answer their goddamn phones. Honestly, what is it about me? And dont say psychosis, because they dont know about it. Maybe I should tell them, up front. Then, because of Equal Oppurtunity laws, if they DONT give me the job, theyre discriminating. I mean, who the hell do they think they are, telling me my resume didnt meet their requirements? They dont even know me. If I went to an interview and they actually clapped eyes on me, I could take it better, but how is it possible that Im not qualified?
I am qualified for just about everything. Ive had a lot of jobs, and that means Im highly motivated and keen to learn a variety of skills. It also means Ive moved house a lot, lived in a lot of places. These are great things. Yet its like they assume Ive been fired, when in actual fact most of those managers begged me not to leave, and it was life circumstance that has forced me to change positions.
I have a certificate in horse husbandry, and half a completed diploma in management and rural business. Ok, theyre a few years old, but the classes are valid. I have a statement of attainment in mentoring and counselling, Ive done sales courses. Ive worked in retail, sundries, clothing, nursery, and produce. Ive promoted sexpo and a family friendly photo place, not to mention cars and clothes. Ive been a hawker, a donation collector. Ive worked a process line, Ive RUN a process line from the machine end. Ive done quality control checks on pharmacueticals, Ive manufactured security devices. Ive pick packed standard by hand and Ive picked packed with a double palett truck with a 200 carton per hour pick rate. Ive run a dispatch centre, completing orders as they come in from customers and calling couriers to have it sent by their time specifications. Ive been a cleaner, Ive been a groom and a stable hand and a farm hand and a landscaper. Ive even taught english over seas and run a seven horse stable. Ive taken jobsearch groups, working with long term unemployed, Ive been a manager and Ive been a shift worker. Ive done admin, phones and filing and stock tracking.
WHY DOES NO ONE WANT ME?????
Ive gotta go for a wander, but Im trying to put it off. Gotta do it though. Looks like I can get some stocktake work, and the ol picture place I used to work for has 2 days for me. So if I wander down the road I can complete my application and get some bread for tonights soup. Procrastinating a bit though.
Honestly, Im sick of this. When I was younger, I had no experience in anything - I was just a brat, and everyone hired me. Now I have experience and I can SUFFER, man! Do I know how to suffer! And yet they dont hire me. They want the 14 yr old who forgets to show up.
Ok universe, I know somethings going to happen....Please dont let the shit get too deep.....Hit me with your rays, and hurry it up! Kmans getting nervous.
Today its just too bright, too sunny. And I find it hilarious that the breeze coming through the window now would easily be considered 'cool' in summer but right now is feeling 'warm'.
Why does no one want me? Honestly, it used to be all I had to do was show I was available to the job world and prospective employment quite literally beat the door down. Now I keep getting "Sorry" "Unfortunately" and people refusing to answer their goddamn phones. Honestly, what is it about me? And dont say psychosis, because they dont know about it. Maybe I should tell them, up front. Then, because of Equal Oppurtunity laws, if they DONT give me the job, theyre discriminating. I mean, who the hell do they think they are, telling me my resume didnt meet their requirements? They dont even know me. If I went to an interview and they actually clapped eyes on me, I could take it better, but how is it possible that Im not qualified?
I am qualified for just about everything. Ive had a lot of jobs, and that means Im highly motivated and keen to learn a variety of skills. It also means Ive moved house a lot, lived in a lot of places. These are great things. Yet its like they assume Ive been fired, when in actual fact most of those managers begged me not to leave, and it was life circumstance that has forced me to change positions.
I have a certificate in horse husbandry, and half a completed diploma in management and rural business. Ok, theyre a few years old, but the classes are valid. I have a statement of attainment in mentoring and counselling, Ive done sales courses. Ive worked in retail, sundries, clothing, nursery, and produce. Ive promoted sexpo and a family friendly photo place, not to mention cars and clothes. Ive been a hawker, a donation collector. Ive worked a process line, Ive RUN a process line from the machine end. Ive done quality control checks on pharmacueticals, Ive manufactured security devices. Ive pick packed standard by hand and Ive picked packed with a double palett truck with a 200 carton per hour pick rate. Ive run a dispatch centre, completing orders as they come in from customers and calling couriers to have it sent by their time specifications. Ive been a cleaner, Ive been a groom and a stable hand and a farm hand and a landscaper. Ive even taught english over seas and run a seven horse stable. Ive taken jobsearch groups, working with long term unemployed, Ive been a manager and Ive been a shift worker. Ive done admin, phones and filing and stock tracking.
WHY DOES NO ONE WANT ME?????
Ive gotta go for a wander, but Im trying to put it off. Gotta do it though. Looks like I can get some stocktake work, and the ol picture place I used to work for has 2 days for me. So if I wander down the road I can complete my application and get some bread for tonights soup. Procrastinating a bit though.
Honestly, Im sick of this. When I was younger, I had no experience in anything - I was just a brat, and everyone hired me. Now I have experience and I can SUFFER, man! Do I know how to suffer! And yet they dont hire me. They want the 14 yr old who forgets to show up.
Ok universe, I know somethings going to happen....Please dont let the shit get too deep.....Hit me with your rays, and hurry it up! Kmans getting nervous.
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