Rumbles
October 3rd 2011 05:49
Its back to work for little Kleo this week, and I was looking forward to it. Even though I still consider anything that oils the wheels of consumerisim to be the root of all evil, I was looking forward to being out and about and being on my own.
However, over the last few weeks I have developed a new pain symptom. My jaw has decided its been left out of the fun too long and has taken up a nasty ache. It occasionally stabs me if I twist my mouth the wrong way, and my ear now has an all new and improved throb, thanks to the ripping pain through my jaw. Eating is dicey, and I cant talk for too long or at my preferred volume. Thats probably a good thing. I simply dont have time now to get out and see my doc before I start back so I'll just have to suffer until I can find the time. Its most likely all part of the same thing anyway - continued pressure of the left maxillery sinus resulting in pressure in the left ear and now, all that pressure has afflicted the next junction in line. Ive upped my endep dose and am using a wider kaliedescope of drugs than usual. At first I was really angry and depressed - surely, I have enough pain? - but now I see I will get used to it, just as Ive gotten used to everything else. Who knows what the doc will say, what she will choose to do. Interestingly enough, pompos neuro mentioned last time I was there that he thought something was wrong with my jaw, but we better not tell him anything, because his head doesnt need to get any bigger.
Everything else is running fairly smoothly, but the writing mojo I had is now gone and it seems I'll have to hunt it up again. It seems my daughter will talk any day now, so I'll probably miss it, being back at work. I really dont know how Im going to do everything and love myself as well so it looks like as usual, I'll get left behind to take care of later while I make sure everyone else is well.
I swear, one day, I'll have it as I want it, pain or not.
However, over the last few weeks I have developed a new pain symptom. My jaw has decided its been left out of the fun too long and has taken up a nasty ache. It occasionally stabs me if I twist my mouth the wrong way, and my ear now has an all new and improved throb, thanks to the ripping pain through my jaw. Eating is dicey, and I cant talk for too long or at my preferred volume. Thats probably a good thing. I simply dont have time now to get out and see my doc before I start back so I'll just have to suffer until I can find the time. Its most likely all part of the same thing anyway - continued pressure of the left maxillery sinus resulting in pressure in the left ear and now, all that pressure has afflicted the next junction in line. Ive upped my endep dose and am using a wider kaliedescope of drugs than usual. At first I was really angry and depressed - surely, I have enough pain? - but now I see I will get used to it, just as Ive gotten used to everything else. Who knows what the doc will say, what she will choose to do. Interestingly enough, pompos neuro mentioned last time I was there that he thought something was wrong with my jaw, but we better not tell him anything, because his head doesnt need to get any bigger.
Everything else is running fairly smoothly, but the writing mojo I had is now gone and it seems I'll have to hunt it up again. It seems my daughter will talk any day now, so I'll probably miss it, being back at work. I really dont know how Im going to do everything and love myself as well so it looks like as usual, I'll get left behind to take care of later while I make sure everyone else is well.
I swear, one day, I'll have it as I want it, pain or not.
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