For anyone who has been following my medical posts you will be pleased to know they have been moved into their own category.
Heres whats wrong with me, to date. And let me tell you, we know a lot more than we used to!
Chronic Migraine, which may or may not involve aura. The nuero doesnt know. And Im not about to pay $250 for a very wordy 'I dont know'.
Trigeminal nueralga. Even though the nuero said no, both my ENT and GP are convinced I have it. TGN stays on the list.
Chronic sinusitis caused by a degeneration of the sinus cavity itself. I now take a steroid spray daily and pound more clarityne than ever before.
TMJ. Yep, left jaw. Thats FOUR conditions in the same place now. The pain in my jaw was so bad I thought I wouldnt be able to go back to work. I doubled up on Endep, which is just the magic drug for me. God I love it. Ive had some emotional issues bhut have pushed through, I need the 25mg too much. I am having a CT and an X ray next week, the doc thinks I might have...Drumroll....A dislocated jaw! The pains all wrong for TMJ. She said, when feeling my face, "K, why do you have to be so weird?"
Vitiligio. Not noticeable over winter, blotches appear upon the slightest suntan.
Endometriosis, which was supposed to be so severe, I couldnt get pregnant. Ha! Thought they would know better by now. Since I had the baby, it has not played up. During pregnancy my endo lesions caused some trouble, but since birth, its been quiet.
Arthritis. Always fun.
Oooh dermatitis. Cant get rid of it. Look like a leper.
Heart murmur which worsened during pregnancy. Having some flutters. Had borderline blood pressure at the end which has contributed to chest pain.
IBS. Like the arthritis, always fun. Just to keep it interesting.
I now function on a careful concoction of ibuprofen and paracetamol and vitamin supplements. I like herbal muscle relaxants for muscle spasams. I cannot ever forget my precious endep. The pain is always there, but manageable, and attacks are rare.
Like I said, we know more than we used to!
September 23rd 2010 02:37
Well, its 12 and a half weeks now and I can safely say I'm still in complete denial. The ultrasound the other day literally blew my mind - I didnt expect to see much of anything - but there was head, legs, hands, spine, brain....Wriggling around and sucking its thumb (omigod how freaking adorable!) We have named the incoming offspring Wriggling Weazel for now because I was in there for 40 minutes, no joke, just to get all the correct measurements. Little Wriggler just would not stop moving.
Despite all of that, without a little x ray window on the tummy, it's a little hard to get on with ones everday duties while thinking that you have a person inside you. So for the most part I dont really think about it. Women screaming "DONT LIFT THAT!" are really, really starting to piss me off because I am seriously not disabled. If they want to help out the pregnant lady then they could finish my floors for me at the end of the night cos its that final squigee thats really tiring me out.
Another stupid statement was, "Well, I guess you wont be working nights anymore" My reply was a puzzled..."Why?" They were equally puzzled. "Well. You know. You're pregnant. And tired and stuff"
Ok yes, pregnant, and tired and stuff. But that does not change the fact that since I myself was a baby I've been a night owl. Very difficult for my early bird mum. One of the rasons this job works so well for me is because I work nights and only nights. No early mornings, no busy days. I'm still alert when I get home and happily stay up a few hours and catch up my sleep in the daylight hours, when its always been easier for me to sleep.
Right now the biggest problem for me is that for the last 2 years I have functioned on a drawer full of drugs - clarityne, clarinase and all their decongestant brothers and sisters (including nasal sprays), anti inflammatories, muscle relaxers of herbal, prescription and over the counter varieties, and painkillers, lots and lots of painkillers. Early this year my dear Doc and I went on a rampage to finally discover the cause of my pain and it was discovered I have serious sinus issues requiring surgery to fix it.
Then I got pregnant.
At first, with pregnancy hormones flooding my body, I was fine. No headaches and no sinus issues to speak of. I thought all would continue as such. Last weeks my old headaches came back - the ones that wrap around my skull and stab into my left eye, ear and cheek. They dont go away when Im sleeping, and are still there when I wake. Let me tell you, thats really depressing. So far, this is what works.
Massage face before I get out of bed. Wash face vigourosly. Have breakfast and a warm drink, only then have some panadol. Stretch all back and neck muscles. Get moving - go for a walk or do some housework. So far this is working ok but sometimes even all that isnt enough to settle it down. I dont know what I'll do about it and need to discuss with doc next week.
And that brings me to another thing - yesterday I was mighty pissed off. I called my local hospital, as my doc directed me to do, and they informed me that I had to be refrred by a local obsterician to be admitted as a public patient. I mean, are you kidding me? I already have a doc, and I sure as hell dont need another one! Im going to inquire at my other local hospital, because I sure as hell dont want to get used to a new doc right now.
I threw down the baby book a friend lent me in disgust because I seem to be doing everything backwards. I found it quite hilarious that she describes her book as 'different to all the other pretentious tomes' when to me thats exactly how she sounded.
Mothers everywhere will think Im a fool but I cant wait to get a bit bigger. Its because I work in a store full of arsehole customers. I'm a good worker, I check for customers every few seconds while Im doing other things. Someone can walk up in the moment after you've looked over you're shoulder, and when you make eye contact a second or two later, they are already looking impatient, giving you that look that says, "my god Ive been here for AGES" and you know they havnt. Because you just checked. So it'll be nice to turn my bulk slowly about and say, "I'm on my way mate" and see their face fall as they realize what an arsehole they've been.
Why does it take pregnancy for that to happen?
Well, its officially my first pregnancy sick day. It was so spur of the moment. My lunch is made, uniform clean, all prepared.....And I woke up with my ear and temple throbbing and some nausea and when I realized I couldnt just take a handfull of pills and soldier on I picked up the phone. I waited anxiously for mega bitch boss to pick up and skreetch at me but mercifully, she was not there. They said ok and I hung up to sleep for another 6 hours.
My appetite is out of control, If I dont eat, immediately, when hungry, I get sick and tired. Even though Im only roughly seven weeks, Im growing.
I had an early detection. I got pregnant straight off the pill, and mum was a twin. You know where this is going right?
Im having an ultrasound to check in a few days. With all my spooky scary Kleo powers I tell ya, I believe it is two. Boy and Girl to be specific. Im often wrong, so I may not be right. Only the ultrasound wand and a full bladder shall tell.....Ouch!
Im reading 'Up The Duff' by Kaz Cooke, and though its Frigging HILARIOUS I have to say she falls prey to the same crap every other informative piece does. When you have the question - "will this affect my pregnancy" whatever 'THIS' may be, everyone, and everyone, says "definitely probably not"
I know this linguo. Listened to it for years over my migraine and sinus problems. It translates to - "we have no clue. None. You could go go dance on the ceiling and still be fine for all WE know"
All publications are quick to say dont drink and smoke. But wander through any of the housing commision areas of sydney and you'll see that one is a big lie. Not only do houso girls smoke and drink, they have tribes, HORDES of children. Healthy enough to get into crime as early as 13.
They say rest up, but exercise. They say eat, but dont overeat - while helpfully supplying how many extra serves of protien/calcium you should be eating. They say go to work, but dont work too hard. I tell ya....Ive said it before, but if we had this much confusion 100 years ago, the human race would be EXTINCT.
Its hit me that no sane person in their right mind in this modern society actually chooses to have kids. Its not like years ago when there was little contraception and it was just the 'thing to do'. There was no worry, no consequence, babies were as much apart of death as life. Now we're getting closer to knowing about death, but we have much less life. Once babies would be getting born in a household every few months, now we 'think about it' which we never did before.
See, we 'think about it' very maturely. We think about money, space, school, clothes....We try to imagine ourselves as parents and how we'll do at it. But then, one day, you stop thinking, You just do it. And its not until you're actually pregnant that all that other stuff returns and you go 'Oh..CHRIST". Ive decided that no sane intelligent person is capable of deciding, because its too hard. Thats why we have so many 'accidents' or doubt our sanity the moment we get pregnant. I sure did.
I have days where Im not happy, where Im scared. Im not sure how post natal depression works when you already had prenatal depression.....And I cant take my endep once I start breastfeeding. So Im going to be in some wicked nasty pain then.
But I feel them, I know them. They've spoken to me for years. Im so happy to have them with me, to know they are coming to live in the world. They waited a long time for me, and now, ready or not, we're all going to be together.
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