Kalikapsychosis - "Perfection is what its about. When you can feel, the perfection, of creation. The beauty of physics, the wonder of mathematics all the elation of action, and reaction, and that is the kind of perfection that I want to be connected to" - Sam, hooked into the data stream

I have to give my apologies.

I usually alert my readers to winters coming at the very first hint of its breath, and this year its chill is evident and I am sorely late.

Winters first hint was about the first or second week of April, I remember feeling that space in the air, I knew, it was coming and it was going to be cold - much colder than last year. Last year, winter hardly even happened. This year I just knew. Kman thought I was mad as I was out chopping wood in the heat of the afternoon, but only about a week later we lit the fire for the first time.

Kman seems to actively thwart my efforts in gathering wood. Im not quite sure how he does it - I assume, by completely slacking off - but when I try to gather up a weeks worth of wood so we have some in reserve it all disappears in one night. Gathering wood and breaking down kindling or tinder is still as soothing as it ever was, only I cant immerse myself in it and allow my thoughts to wander as they will like I once did - now Im always on a time limit as Im sure any mum will know.

So much is changing in this world, and the more it reaches out and wants to change the more I wish for the simplicity of cold air and a warm oven, that feeling as the suns slipping down and Im cooking something nice and Im going to enjoy it with the ones I love the most. This is what comfort is to me, that dusky twilight, the cold wind just stirring the leaves, Kman chopping wood, horses chewing and ducks dabbling, while I slowly light my crackling fire and plan the finishing touches of my meal.

I wonder if anyone out there making so much noise about how to live even knows why they live. Life suffers when its complicated, its not about how much you can fit into it - because believe me, if you can think of a hundred things, you can indeed, fit them all in - its about how much you enjoy the simplest of things. If they arent enough for you, then I dont think you are doing them right.

We seem so concerned with politics, with the value of a dollar and most of all, finding someone to blame, blame, blame. Since I was a little girl its been all about 'levelling' so that none go hungry, but now I sense quite distinctly that the focus has shifted from 'help them' to 'blame someone for it'. It makes us feel better, I give you that, but its a quick fix. Sooner or later the truth will be back in your blood again.

The world is turning and we all know it, we can all feel it. Every single screaming indignant voice cant change it, no matter how shrilly they blame their neighbor for it. Shes turning, because we've hurt her, cant you see? She'd forgive the misuse of her soil, but this mentality we're serving up right now, its hurting her spirit. Too many humans, and none of them seeing the importance of balance, the light, the dark in the weave and the necessity of both.

So she's going to turn. A cold shoulder coming for us all. If simplicity isnt enough then she will make it so.

Happy Winter.

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I'm 30

May 1st 2012 14:29

And I have been for about 15 minutes now.

I honestly dont get what all the fuss is about, although, that might be due to me embracing '40 is the new 30' about 3 years ago. It was about 3 years ago that I realized, for all intents and purposes, Im now 30, no matter what the actual numbers say. Its like how even though Kman and I arent married, in the eyes of the government, we are, so theres really no need to make it official.

Lifes as well as it can be right now. Im planning well for the next few weeks....I did Zayfir's hooves today and I have far less bruises than normal, so I must be getting better. I got all revved up to do Magis hooves, but he didnt need it.

Piper is definitely a boy.... Bit disappionting but Im planning around him. More on that later.

The blog will be a little quiet...As usual, not from lack of inspiration, but from lack of time.

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A most wonderful summer

February 21st 2012 13:44

I grant you, you'll most likely be seeing titles like that on the headings of American school papers, most certainly NOT from a resident of Sydney....

But its no secret to my readers that I am not a fan of hot weather. I was downright traumatized in primary school to learn that at summer, the sun is directly perpendicular to Australia. The rays are vertical. Vertical! Come on, use what little imagination you have, realize what that means! No buffering. No relief. Just full on UV.

There have been days within this summer where the mad hissing of insects and the blistering heat with no sun almost drove me insane. However, all I had to do was turn my thoughts to the 40 degree days of last year...(lets not forget I was pregnant then, too) to realize how much kinder a bit of misty humidity was compared to blazing fire in the sky.

Not just has the sun been covered, he's been robbed of his power. On the days he has ventured out, he hasnt managed to actually burn anything. And once covered up again, even the residual heat dissipated, meaning that on average, we have been enjoying a lovely 24 degrees.

And over the last few days its gotten so very crisp. Oh, just feel it, that nip in the air that whispers frost and snow and clear cool cold. We are going to slide right into winter without ever having known summer. Its particularly blissful for me, as I have seen the summers slowly get hotter and hotter, and fully expected this year to top them all. What a lovely surprise, to see that the weather has actually turned and done a reverse.

Now Id like to mention something truly terrifying.

Even though people have been moaning about where summer has gone, they havnt actually realized that the weather is that different. When I sit down and explain to someone the difference between the weather now and 20 years ago, they say "Wow. You're right" but thats it. It actually has no impact on them.

Do the majority of people actually walk around not continuosly observing the world around them? Its literally frightening to me to realize this. It enrages me when people say climate change does not exist, is a myth, when not only is it a scientifically confirmed fact, it would be completely freakin obvious if you just looked around!

Is it because, every single human is guilty? They know its the over consumption, the cities and the general misuse of the earths gifts that caused it?

Well guess what. You need to let that guilt go. You need to realize no amount of recycling is going to turn this tide now. Someone needs to say it - its DONE. Its OVER. You cannot stop climate change with any amount of pollution restriction.

Killing half the worlds human population and destruction of every major city without the use of heat. That is the only thing that would effect climate change now, and you'd have to do it in a week or less, this year.

But guess what.

Even that action would not save us now. It might have five years ago, but now the changes are too far advanced. Now taking away the catalysts that sparked the changes would only cause a complete tailspin. The results would be completely unpredictable.

Now all we can do is ride this pony out, wave goodbye to any species that cant adapt, and hope to hell we can.

How do I know this? Because I observe the world I live in. I spend every day balancing the delicate eco systems of the land I live on, so I notice its changes. And Ive seen shit I aint never seen before.

Hang on humans, its gonna be a bumpy ride.

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Apologies dear readers

February 16th 2012 03:43

Im trying to avoid writing garbage, but I also dont want my blog to be completely void of new material. I know, it doesnt mean much if Im not actually SAYING anything.

First off, I want to have a rant about channel 11. The whole point of having a blog is for ranting, regardless of whether people are listening. I love Channel 11, dont get me wrong, it has excellent programs. Trouble is, I cant watch any of them. Before christmas they were showing Angel, and I looked forward to getting home from work to watch it. Until the program started to fragment - as if through interferance. Programs before and after were crystal clear - even ads were clear - but the program itself was indesipherable

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No News

January 31st 2012 12:59

Well folks, things are pretty quiet around these parts.

The weather is making rugging a nightmare. Rain, but too hot for a raincoat. Im trying to gather up some money to get new winter rugs, but if the weather is going to be as even as last year, they wont even need them

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I refuse to debate the nuances of the english language

October 18th 2011 03:25

I know my way around the english language pretty well. Its my natural tongue, which, admittedly, doesnt mean much. Ive met plenty of foriegners who speak better english than the people I grew up with. I however, have been in love with english since I could first read at two years old. Ive railed against the changes to it, then embraced them, and now returned to my original stance - stop butchering her.

I loved english so much that by my senoir years in school I was one of the selected handful to go into the highest class, which was called at that time Related English. Of that small handful - less than 20 - only one dropped maths to do 3 units of Related English, and that student was me. I won the writing competition three years in a row, and one of my science competition entries, a story, came second in the science competition. I did not perform as well as I intended to in the HSC, simply because even though I loved to write ten page essays and remember pages of quotes, Ive always been a flamboyant writer, and thats not what they are looking for in an essay. I have a tendancy to gloss over things that need in depth detail, and ramble on about things of personal interest to myself but have no bearing on my argument. Looking back, I can see that

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Rumbles

October 3rd 2011 05:49

Its back to work for little Kleo this week, and I was looking forward to it. Even though I still consider anything that oils the wheels of consumerisim to be the root of all evil, I was looking forward to being out and about and being on my own.

However, over the last few weeks I have developed a new pain symptom. My jaw has decided its been left out of the fun too long and has taken up a nasty ache. It occasionally stabs me if I twist my mouth the wrong way, and my ear now has an all new and improved throb, thanks to the ripping pain through my jaw. Eating is dicey, and I cant talk for too long or at my preferred volume. Thats probably a good thing. I simply dont have time now to get out and see my doc before I start back so I'll just have to suffer until I can find the time. Its most likely all part of the same thing anyway - continued pressure of the left maxillery sinus resulting in pressure in the left ear and now, all that pressure has afflicted the next junction in line. Ive upped my endep dose and am using a wider kaliedescope of drugs than usual. At first I was really angry and depressed - surely, I have enough pain? - but now I see I will get used to it, just as Ive gotten used to everything else. Who knows what the doc will say, what she will choose to do. Interestingly enough, pompos neuro mentioned last time I was there that he thought something was wrong with my jaw, but we better not tell him anything, because his head doesnt need to get any bigger

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Not much to say...

August 11th 2011 02:48

As often happens when I am content, I havnt got much to say. Ideas for blog posts go swirling around my head, but as usual I cant choose one to develop so they stay on my mental shelf.

The good news is, Ive been writing. My new glasses are so incredibly strong, I cant look at anything except the screen while Ive got them on. That, and a free word program (THANKYOU, ABIWORD!!) have contributed to me banging out a few pages last weekend. It was just a little scene, very dark, which as it happens is actually a part of the savage princess - Book six or seven I believe

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