Today (and hatred)
June 14th 2007 04:11
The best way for me to sort my head out and discover something really inspiring to write about is just to ramble for a bit describing my current situation. Id like to talk about today, so much to say about today.....But Ive been sidetracked. The community has gone nuts.
People, people, whats going on? Im away for a few days and this is what happens? Everyones attacking each other - Its left my head spinning!
Here on orble we have - People who are * Condescending * Holier than thou * self important *meek * mild * talented *Untalented *pushy * opinionated .......
But mostly we have a bit of everything. The etc's could go on forever. To me, it just sounds like a bunch of artists - we used to call our school artroom 'the pit' and every spare moment it was packed with brightly coloured, loud and very emotional people. I suppose thats why Im so comfortable here. But the point is that Ive had people hurt me. Some with good intentions, some with intent to hurt - but Ive had people rile me right up. What do I do about it?
NOTHING. Yep, read it again if you didnt get it - NOTHING. I have a life in the real world, so the odd upset in text isnt going to break me down in tears. I laugh my ass off, and say "well, they dont know me, however much they think theyd like to!" If the comment was particularly cutting I turn down my agressive personality a couple of hundred amps and reply practically and sweetly. Its very easy to think things through and give proper replies when your typing. Im not saying Im innocent - Im not. I have spoken without aid of my brain on occassion, I even entered into out and out war once (hug to you, if youre reading) but I got over it. Im very open minded - In this world or the real world I take people for how they present themselves, who they want to be, who theyre trying to be, and what theyve made of themselves so far. I do not judge. Oh sure I'll say "theyre dumb for saying that" or "they havnt got their info straight" but on the whole I give people credit for trying, even if we're not trying for the same thing. I wish em luck!
Why do some people feel urged to attack others within a virtual community? In a behavioural study the only answer is threat. Animals attack when they feel threatened. Ethics do not work the same way in text however. Attacks only result in public bashings it seems.
Enough. Im over it now, and Im going to describe my day.......No matter how many of you think thats whingy girl cry baby blog material, its my blog! Deal with it!
Yesterday I had my darling Kman home. Despite the presence of his super man strength I still did all the jobs myself - feeding rugging bringing in wood, the kitchen, the dinner, the ducks.....I love him anyway.
Today I groggily awoke at about 8am. First job - GET THE FIRE GOING!! This is so important - Rains predicted for the next few days. Our wood is in a shed yet gets wet, hence, I must bring in as much as possible to put around the fire to dry out! If I let it go down, we have no wood, no fire! Got the fire going with success - took a while to master slow combustion but I got it worked out. Next feed the horses, and isnt it lovely to leave the rugs on? It seems to add so much time to my day. Im NOT letting them in the side yard near the pitbulls - too much drama. Everyone stays out back today. Washing was conquered on the weekend and yesterday, house is acceptably clean, so let the ducks free on the back deck, and Im free to contemplate weather!
Isnt it lovely? Tuesday, as I strode quickly through the crowds, stunningly wrapped in supermodel casual clothes, I drank down cold draughts of perfect winter air. All the way home I made love to it, that crisp, clean cold.
Yesterday I revelled in it, diving in without fear, lapping it up, laughing in delight at frost patterns, ridgid spider webs, and wind whipping my cheeks.
Today I worship it, I live it and love it - The dark clouds unfurl over my head, periodically changing sun to dark, the sky an ever changing pattern, rain promised, cold absolute.
Oh, how I do love winter! Now my head is clearer.......
People, people, whats going on? Im away for a few days and this is what happens? Everyones attacking each other - Its left my head spinning!
Here on orble we have - People who are * Condescending * Holier than thou * self important *meek * mild * talented *Untalented *pushy * opinionated .......
But mostly we have a bit of everything. The etc's could go on forever. To me, it just sounds like a bunch of artists - we used to call our school artroom 'the pit' and every spare moment it was packed with brightly coloured, loud and very emotional people. I suppose thats why Im so comfortable here. But the point is that Ive had people hurt me. Some with good intentions, some with intent to hurt - but Ive had people rile me right up. What do I do about it?
NOTHING. Yep, read it again if you didnt get it - NOTHING. I have a life in the real world, so the odd upset in text isnt going to break me down in tears. I laugh my ass off, and say "well, they dont know me, however much they think theyd like to!" If the comment was particularly cutting I turn down my agressive personality a couple of hundred amps and reply practically and sweetly. Its very easy to think things through and give proper replies when your typing. Im not saying Im innocent - Im not. I have spoken without aid of my brain on occassion, I even entered into out and out war once (hug to you, if youre reading) but I got over it. Im very open minded - In this world or the real world I take people for how they present themselves, who they want to be, who theyre trying to be, and what theyve made of themselves so far. I do not judge. Oh sure I'll say "theyre dumb for saying that" or "they havnt got their info straight" but on the whole I give people credit for trying, even if we're not trying for the same thing. I wish em luck!
Why do some people feel urged to attack others within a virtual community? In a behavioural study the only answer is threat. Animals attack when they feel threatened. Ethics do not work the same way in text however. Attacks only result in public bashings it seems.
Enough. Im over it now, and Im going to describe my day.......No matter how many of you think thats whingy girl cry baby blog material, its my blog! Deal with it!
Yesterday I had my darling Kman home. Despite the presence of his super man strength I still did all the jobs myself - feeding rugging bringing in wood, the kitchen, the dinner, the ducks.....I love him anyway.
Today I groggily awoke at about 8am. First job - GET THE FIRE GOING!! This is so important - Rains predicted for the next few days. Our wood is in a shed yet gets wet, hence, I must bring in as much as possible to put around the fire to dry out! If I let it go down, we have no wood, no fire! Got the fire going with success - took a while to master slow combustion but I got it worked out. Next feed the horses, and isnt it lovely to leave the rugs on? It seems to add so much time to my day. Im NOT letting them in the side yard near the pitbulls - too much drama. Everyone stays out back today. Washing was conquered on the weekend and yesterday, house is acceptably clean, so let the ducks free on the back deck, and Im free to contemplate weather!
Isnt it lovely? Tuesday, as I strode quickly through the crowds, stunningly wrapped in supermodel casual clothes, I drank down cold draughts of perfect winter air. All the way home I made love to it, that crisp, clean cold.
Yesterday I revelled in it, diving in without fear, lapping it up, laughing in delight at frost patterns, ridgid spider webs, and wind whipping my cheeks.
Today I worship it, I live it and love it - The dark clouds unfurl over my head, periodically changing sun to dark, the sky an ever changing pattern, rain promised, cold absolute.
Oh, how I do love winter! Now my head is clearer.......
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Comment by David
I really love these lines:
David ...
Comment by KylieW
Celebrity Obsession
I loved that line too!
I'm with you, I LOVE winter. I much prefer it to summer (well except for the fact that it's light until so late in summer....I do love that).
I've been away a few days too and it looks like I missed out on what's been going on Orble. Everyone seems to be up in arms!!!
Kylie
Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
Thankyou darlin. Poems to come on the wonders of winter....Oh, endless poems! How many different ways can one describe cold air?
KylieW,
Great to see you! Isnt winter wonderous.....I hate daylight saving. Long nights and short days are right up there with cold air in my book!
And yep, the community seems to have gone wild....Everyones got their weapons out! Must have been because our shining presences werent here eh?
Comment by David
Winter is such a great subject for poetry.
There's probably an infinite number of ways to describe cold air.
I'll look forward to reading your winter poems.
David ...
Comment by charliesgirl_992000
Histeries, Mysteries and what not
Lifes little slices
Mystical Creativity
yeah, i'm more like you. i try and just avoid fighting and conflict. doesn't always work that way but for the most part. i try and keep calmness and peace in my life as much as possible. if something or someone is causing me too much tention or hard times, i change it. wash my hands of it. i just can't and won't put myself or my family through it. "LIFE is just too short!!"
Take care my friend! Tammy
Comment by Wendi
As for the Orble Wars, I've noticed a pattern. It'll be quiet and cozy and cooperative for a certain amount of time, and then there's a flare up. Everyone goes on a bit of a rant, and then it quiets back down. I've learned to filter it out, personally. Like you, there are real life events and people much more deserving of my energy, and I've not enough energy to spare these days on needless drama and chaos. I do believe there have been a few valid complaints posted lately, some I'd like to see get the attention they deserve (yet know they won't), but as for the shallow cat scratching... I'm over it.
Looking forward to your winter poetry. This Vegas summer heat is suffocating!!
W
Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
So good to have you anticipating! I have REAMS of wnter description! Just remember, you asked for it!
Tammy,
THATS AWESOME!!!! Its a very important pic to me, its from the anime series 'Evangelion - Neon Genisus' which is about 26 episodes and then a 3 hour movie to finish it off. I'll post on it, and why the pic is so important, but its kind of a spoiler!
Beieve me, this series hits harder on God and the Human race than anything youve EVER seen!
Wendi,
Ah, yeah, I figured.....Its not like we can blame the water or the air is it? Why cant people just be nice? Im not very nice in real life, its one of the reasons I like blogging. Instead of being my abrupt half thought out self I have a chance to think and present myself through writing....Which is a great chance to show the real me!
Comment by DuskDevi
Rugby World Cup 2007
Wow Kleo. You're in my head Woman!
....thank you...I absolutely agree with you...
In the physical world, I am not aggressive but I don't back down from confrontation.
People either try to 'take me on' or back off very quickly.
I'm lucky in that I am fairly tall and actually look much taller than I am so this tends to intimidate.
Plus I carry a light sabre...and have a few tricks up my
robesleeve.Thing is...I like a fair fight with someone my own size or bigger and 'fighting' this way...from the safety of relative anonymity and the barrier of a computer screen...how is this fair? How the hell is this brave?
This is why I back off. To a point.
Sometimes you need to fight fire with a laser.
All this hatred astounds me. I have been the brunt of it many many many times on Orble and it just baffles me. Not why anyone would dislike me (or anyone else, I'm just citing myself as an example)...that's fine, that's fair...it's the naked hatred I don't get.
And David darlin'...for some reason...they're all out to get you. Not that you ever do anything to provoke...
Blogging has given power to the very people who should never have it.
The Weak of Will.
They don't have nor cultivate the strength to be the best they can be...they're never content...they just provide nasty content.
Virtual bullies attack the perceived leaders.
Or those that they would like to be.
And even though I too love the lines that David and Kylie have pointed out...it's this that had me smiling;
...and yes, yes...I know you all love winter but I am counting down the days to Summer!
Kleo...I love your banner!
Comment by DuskDevi
Rugby World Cup 2007
Sorry! that's not what I mean to convey...
Comment by Ash
Flashes of memories
I have to go with the majority here... that is such a great way of putting it
oooohhh shivers of pure pleasure at the thought. Like yourself I just love winter... the clean, crisp air...
Your job seems to be going well?
I would love to write screeds on the nonsense going on in these Orble halls. I normally try and stay out of these things because at the end of the day it is all so petty and I don`t like battles because I end up saying things that don`t really need to be said. However, when people that I respect are slandered... then I have a problem and can`t keep my mouth shut. Thank goodness for text where I can gather my thoughts and be a little more civilised - it takes a lot to rock my boat when it gets rocked - STAND BACK!
I just don`t get it though - a simple click of one button and all of what you don`t like disappears - if only the real world were that simple!
ash
Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
You are so lovely, always a joy to see you! And THANK YOU for pointing out the most important part of this post. In life, Im incredibly agressive. I have an incredibly deep, resonant voice which I can make carry as if I have a microphone(years of failed singing lessons - tone deaf!) and for some reason I have yet to work out, I terrify people with that voice. Full grown men twice my size run for cover when I yell. There is no space between my head and my mouth.
But HERE? People only know what I WANT them to know. Im honest as hell, but I only reveal what I want to. If people get upset, I really just think they dont have their own lives to live! To enter into a personal debate in virtual word is so pointless. I love that here I get the oppurtunity to think out my replies and say what I mean not what I feel.
Its funny you picked that line - I find it astounding that at home I look SHOCKING(Today? Kmans over size jumper, jeans that are too big and a layer of mud and bird crap) but when I go to work I look like a supermodel on a casual day! I always see my reflection and think - Is that really me? In a red leather jacket and hair falling just so under my chic purple sunnies? Gives me a laugh. Crowds stare at me as I stride confidently along, everyone thinking - Shouldnt I know her?
And thankyou, I love my banner too!
Oh dear Dusk, not arrogant in the slightest! Even if it was your welcome here!
Ash,
Yep, the job is certainly one of those 'too good to be true' things. I love my boss so much, I love the work, and shes so flexible. Its brilliant!
I just got very upset over it because your my friend and Im very protective of my friends! Your banner really means something to me - You guys really are 'hear' for us all, I dont know what I would have done without you guys sometimes! It hurt me, personally, but also that you are totally innocent and undeserving of such attention.
Lets see if he has a go at me now eh?
Comment by Lilla
From The Home Front
Enviro Warrior
Dream Herald
Esoteric Bookshop
Yesterday I revelled in it, diving in without fear, lapping it up, laughing in delight at frost patterns, ridgid spider webs, and wind whipping my cheeks.
Today I worship it, I live it and love it - The dark clouds unfurl over my head, periodically changing sun to dark, the sky an ever changing pattern, rain promised, cold absolute.
Oh, how I do love winter! Now my head is clearer.......
Oh how I love winter too .. and your description? ... I have so many poems about winter ... written over the years too... but they were written a long, long, long time ago and need lots, and lots, and lots, of work *lol*
I heartily look forward to reading your words and may even re-post some of mine...
I enjoyed this post Kleo ...and your sentiments about the harsh scenes that have graced Orble lately, like riots on the 6'oclock news, which I came here to avoid...*ironic chuckle* but I have a favour to ask of you too sweetie (please don't be offended) ... [I]you don't have to, but please humour an old ladies fading eyes and leave a line between your paragraphs...as the text just swims in the middle of the page ... and it's like trying to hang on to a life raft in a turbulent artic sea...*drooping head* I'll love ya forever if you do..*lol*
*hugs* and good wishes ...
Lilla ...
Comment by Ash
Flashes of memories
yup it`s weird huh? I can come home from the worst day and sit down with a nice glass of wine and some silence (doesn`t happen too much these days though... the silence that is!) and can log in to some understanding 'real' people and really get an energy boost - pity we all didn`t find each other YEARS ago - I reckon I would President(ess) by now with all the lovely encouragement people offer so freely!
WE ROCK MAN!!!!!
Thanks K, huggins to ya!
Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
I will try my utmost to remember for you. I have a shocking memory, but I'll try!
Thankyou so much for your words....Always beautiful!
Ash,
Yes, where were you guys a few years ago? Its funny but since I moved to property all my 'good' friends seem to have disappeared, and when Im out Im thinking "Oh! I cant wait to tell Ash about this....Lilla would love that! Oh, Im going to write this and Wendi will love it..."
*hugs back*